(LYNDHURST, N.J.) -- A New Jersey soccer mom sentenced to 10 years in federal prison for trying to hire a hit man to murder her romantic rival is now speaking exclusively to ABC News. "I was a woman destroyed by emotions and I am paying for it dearly," wrote Nicole Faccenda in an email to ABC News. Faccenda, 45, of Lyndhurst, N.J., is in prison in West Virginia for soliciting a murder-for-hire in 2011 to kill the new girlfriend of her longtime boyfriend.
Faccenda was introduced to a man she thought was a killer in the parking lot of a Mahwah, N.J., supermarket. In actuality, he was an undercover officer with the Bureau of Alcohol Tobacco, Firearms and Explosives -- the ATF. The meeting was being recorded on hidden cameras. In another meeting and numerous phone calls, all monitored by the ATF, she plotted how the hit man would get rid of the other woman.
Faccenda said she wanted the new girlfriend "gone to the moon" and that she would "be happiest when this woman is ... six feet under."
Faccenda was suspicious the hit man might be an undercover agent, saying she had "watched a lot of Lifetime movies" and did not want to be a part of an undercover sting. But she soon handed over a $2,000 down payment with the promise of another $18,000 when the woman was dead and she could go to her funeral. She also provided a picture of the intended target, along with her address.
As for her ex-boyfriend, she said she didn't want him killed, but it would be all right for the hit man to shoot him in the foot. She had less concern for the other woman's children. If they got in the way, she said, "Oh well, I'm sorry."
Faccenda was arrested after the week-long ATF operation. She later pleaded guilty and, in December 2013, was sentenced to 10 years in prison.
Faccenda sent several emails to ABC News from behind bars to share her side of the story for the first time.
In one email, she wrote, "My message to any woman who has had her heart broken and has felt the pain of loss in every bone in her body ... is to take a deep breath and think before speaking. Your words are powerful weapons and you will be held accountable for them and it is definitely not worth it."
Faccenda also wrote, "I know in my heart that if it were not for the persistence and constant pressure from the CI (Confidential Informant) and the ATF agents wanting to make their case, I would not be here today. I was at an emotional low point in my life and they took advantage of that.
She said she accepts full responsibility for her actions and wishes she could take it all back.
"I thank God every day that no one got hurt from my careless actions," she wrote. "I will be indebted to my family and friends for their support. I would like to apologize to the victim and her family. I am not -- and have never been -- a violent person. I was a woman destroyed by emotions and I am paying for it dearly."
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